tonightforyou

Camera status

2009-12-11T05:44:54Z

So, I have been going a little camera happy.
L.O.V.E my new camera.
here's some of my photos, like it?

"live it like you'll never live it twice" ..inspiring..makes me nervous...and not trust myself

First O ring ever

20 years old

2009-12-10T02:50:06Z

Well, today was exciting. I turned 20. My dad's was yesterday, and today is my grandpa's, my sister's and my birthday. another year older. I got the camera I have been wanting though, canon rebel t1i, pretty stoaked on life right now about it. It takes the best pictures ever. Ate a sourdough clam chowder bowl at Anthony's fish grotto today, YUM. now I'm playing dumb addicting game cafe world, and waiting for my camera to charge. Cheers to a good night.

building bridges

2009-12-07T01:03:18Z

How do you build a bridge somewhere, to hold up something so valuable, but it was never intened to NEED a bridge. You tore the bridge down by stupid plot calling and bad decision making, and now you sit here telling me if this doesn't stay up it will be gone forever. I want to build the bridge, I want to make it work. In some cases what you want and the truth of it all, can flop. Here's to hope and faith and love to guide the way and maybe that alone will hold it up.

happy holidays?

2009-12-06T00:32:00Z

Lets just start with the fact that, IM TURNING 20 ON WEDNESDAY! holy crap.

Some things, I wish I could close my eyes and change, or just wish I could tell myself it was all a nightmare, But, it's not, and it never will be, because it did happen.
Alot of things have happened within the year of my graduation, and now. Mission Trips to cabo, River trips, Losing our minds..more than just once. Seeing the roof turn into clouds with the perfect openings, Life has been very good to me. Minus the fact, I failed one class and got kicked out of my Joke of a fast paced school. everything happens for a reason, so hello ROP! from 28K to 2700 for the whole year, God is good. :)

The Holidays are here, already and there is more then just one place I wish I could be. Maybe next year I won't be sitting in california, with a whole bunch of easy girls and guys that just have one thing on there mind. I need a new environment, and when I'm done with lvn school, which starts in January, I will be gone for atleast some while. Will I be single? Or will I be loved still? That's still the question, time will tell.

I'm beginning to realize the only person I can rely on is God, and Family to tell me brutally and honestly what I need to do, and should do. Here goes everything, I ever hoped for.
Is it true, I was always ment for you? Or someday are we going to say we were crazy? I was young when I met you, and the truth is, I'll always love you.

I'm a scatter brain, sometime I think I should write a novel, and maybe inspire somebody with my streangth towards some things, and my weakness in others, and maybe someone will actually help me be stronger. I want to learn, I want to know more, I want to be able to answer problems when noone else can. Maybe be a doctor? ....I want a good camera honestly.

life and itself

2009-12-05T05:13:21Z

Wow, life is completely different now then what it used to be. I haven't written in this thing in forever. Hellooo Livejournal.

tonightforyou @ 2007-04-23T13:06:00

2007-04-23T20:07:09Z

im getting sick of everyone, so quickly
im glad to be leaving in august, i need a break
from all this bullshit, and bitches

well, i don't care anymore
i hate mandy fighting with tyler
people are two-faced so badly lately

this hasn't been the best week
i want winter to come out here,
33 days left of school, THANK GOD
peace

tonightforyou @ 2007-04-04T11:01:00

2007-04-04T18:01:58Z

well, my life might be ruined. SWEET

tonightforyou @ 2007-02-25T13:02:00

2007-02-25T21:02:43Z

Wouldn’t you like to be free in some other way, In your own way for example: not everyone else’s way

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open." -Chuck Palahniuk

tonightforyou @ 2007-02-18T13:01:00

2007-02-18T21:01:56Z

"there are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised by the commitments we are willing to let slip out of our grasps. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we are willing to make. True commitment takes effort and sacrifice which is why sometimes we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments carefully." - brinny

it's so true.

oh&fuck louis.

tonightforyou @ 2007-02-14T18:54:00

2007-02-14T18:56:13Z

valentines day is good this year :), i love addison
and i love mine, vals, and addison's and eric's double dates
i love you michelle, im not getting along with my sister

i want to see sarah, and farria, renae, and christine

tonightforyou @ 2007-02-06T17:34:00

2007-02-06T17:37:17Z

this has been a long 2 weeks, i don' understand why michelle doesn't talk to me anymore, nor have i tried talking to her, i guess things have a way of showing themselves, im not sure what that meens

i miss val&chelle alot though

schoool is dumb, im over it

i have made mistakes,, and me and addison are together, 10 months, 11 months this month :)

im really happy, ah i love him so much, my besfriend

i hate when my sister acts llike she knows him better than i do, it's annoying, like its her boyfriend, but she's fucking with aaron's mind, and i don' wan her to anymore, i feel bad for him.
tyler guh

mandy's talking shit right now to kelly about all of mandy's friends, COOL.

i need some friends that stick around, like, addison, and val,

i need sarah and farria in my life again

my new years

2007-01-02T04:26:28Z

tonightforyou @ 2006-11-14T22:16:00

2006-11-15T05:16:07Z

MY RRGL, we're always ganna be friends, we're not just friends actually, we're the family everyone dreams about, the girls, taht are family, that turned into sisters, the friends that every girl wants, to have the friends to back them up, and be there when they turn around and neeed someone to cry with, we dont just sit there and see eachother cry, we cry for eachother, we're like one big body, makeing up chelle, val, bri and mandy, we're eachother put together, you guys came in my life at the perfect time, just intime to shape and grow together, our life changing experience, we were ment to be friends, and we are, we're family, and i love you forever.

YOU'RE THE BEST FUCKING THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPEND TO ME.
rrgl forever,

they keep me strong, in the times i need it most, when my mind isn't quite made up and i dont know what to say, i dont speak, they just can tell how i feel.

tonightforyou @ 2006-11-08T20:57:00

2006-11-09T03:57:04Z

my life is good,people keep talking
im trying to not let it bug me.even though it's one of my old really close friends
i just wish i could work on being bitchy, while i want to not be bugged by fake girls.
i have the best boyfriend ever, my bestfriend

tonightforyou @ 2006-09-19T17:12:00

2006-09-20T00:13:17Z

me&val are friends again, i got my bestfriend back (: it's just going to take some time. we'll never be the same.

tonightforyou @ 2006-09-15T12:01:00

2006-09-15T19:05:29Z

SAL THRASHERS.

sal, and my bta girls.
it really sucks school is in, because i dont get to see farria or sarah as much as i would like,
i miss summer, but
bta, and addison, made it the best summer ever.

plus everyone i met, saw, got to know more over the summer (:
i miss it, i love you.

scary, i am gnana fill out aplications for the college i want to go to, or am being forced.
dont ask, my grandpa is weird.

and im glad me and val, arn't fighting, just....not friends.

life is perfect

tonightforyou @ 2006-08-28T22:22:00

2006-08-29T05:24:16Z

5 months, (: when I'm with you, I can be myself.

so this is how it feels to be alive

sarah & farria, are my love baby's.
sarah is busy alot lately, it makes me sad, and her dad isn't helping.
farria is just there, for me, whenever i need her, and i thank her for that
im here for the 2 of you, whenever you need me. I'm always here.

tonightforyou @ 2006-08-23T20:28:00

2006-08-24T03:38:22Z

butterflies, bestfriend, warm and fuzzy feelings. (:

" i get that feeling like crying, and when i talk to you like this :] it makes me so happy i just wanna go crazy, i wanna grow old with you , lay in bed with you and just talk and cuddle for hours, I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING GOD DAMN MUCH , you own my fucking heart "

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, you have no idea, (: he is my bestfriend, he sticks around. almost 5 months im excitedd.

mandy, farria, sarah
the 4 of us, stuck together
bestfriends (:

i cry about it, dont talk to me about it.
"my eyes tell secrets, my lips will never tell"
take it back, for mee.
it hurts.

or however that quote goes.

tonightforyou @ 2006-08-16T21:55:00

2006-08-17T05:01:40Z

so , school starts on Monday, and none of my close friends are going to be there, well brett will alteast be there but I have never hungout with him at school.

I have been crying alot because my little brothers are suppost to be leaving on Friday at 5, yea I get so attahced to them, and then they have to leave or I do, talk about a heartbreak. Atleast I know they love me, and I love them. Trace kissed me today (:

we went to the beach for the bonfire, and my grandpa met addison, he was quite rude to him, and my grandpa made me cry earlier before we picked addison up because he told me that he didn't care for addison and he didn't want to meet him, cause he wasn't a christian, when realy my grandpa knows NOTHING about him, I have only said his name around paps and he is a christian so my dumb ass grandpa can shoot himself in the head.

I love how he's going to go to Florida with me next year when I go to college.

I'm going to soak city tomorow, with my most favorite people in the world, minus ron and nik and karen and nicole and my mom and mj
mandy, farria, addison, farria, own my heart, and it's going to stay that way
I cant breathe without there oxygen

and im noticing, that some of my old friends, are complete fucked up and backstabbers, that need to not have a damn ego and get over themselves before someone beats the living shit out of them.

sarah crashed into our car, and she was crying and we were hugging, and her dad was really pissed, BAD DAY. i swear.

I love addison a bunch, and um, my feet stink right now, cause of those damn RITE AID shoes.

Mandy and Nik are back together, I really hope they work out, and I know I'll learn to like him a little, just because it would make Mandy happy, I love her to death, and I want the best for her, and if she's happy I should be. IM WORKING ON IT; I PROMISE

oh and court date on september 11 to move into my daddy's (:

love you guys. (:

tonightforyou @ 2006-08-11T01:10:00

2006-08-11T08:10:43Z

Omg im so lesbian touch my boobies girls please

tonightforyou @ 2006-08-08T21:22:00

2006-08-09T04:27:36Z

brina isaboy: YOU'RE SO CUTE, I WANT TO KISS YOU .
NevrEndngBLISS: YOUR FUCKING ADORABLE
NevrEndngBLISS: i want to kiss you forever
NevrEndngBLISS: never stop
NevrEndngBLISS: :]
NevrEndngBLISS: i like watching you sleep
NevrEndngBLISS: your so cute when you sleep

he's amazing, i love him more than anything, ah , you meen more to me than anything in this damn world, you are my love, my life, my eberything.

20 days till our 5 months (:

Forget MyXLove: your boy is amazing. he is just letting me vent to him. hes a keeper never let him go

yea,. im never going to let him go, he's my bestfriend, and i love him more than anything. AH SECRETS.

it was nice seeing so many people last night, ah.

renae, AMANDA, freddy, tommy, louis, todd, katie, brinny, and everyone else.

AH LIFE IS AMAZING,
my little brothers & shiann are leaving tomorw, SUCKSS

tonightforyou @ 2006-08-02T20:21:00

2006-08-03T03:21:43Z

screw some friends (:, lifes good, but has problems.

we don't argue, or fight. (: something I'm trying to get used to.

my world is changed,

2006-07-30T20:22:23Z

I miss some people, and seeing people's pictures, makes me wonder why bestfriends stop talking all together, when you guys cared and "loved" eachother so much. whatever, im sick of people biting people in the butt.

hell yea, 4 months with addison (:, on the 28th. he's my bestfriend,

I am already thinking about college, and seeing how people are leaving this year, it's going to be so hard to pick up my things and move across the country in exactly a year from now, but I think Addison is moving with me., I'm pretty sure?

val has been gone, she should be back by tonight, i miss her alot.

last night i was suppost to go to dinner with addison and ron, and his dad and his dad's girlfriend lee, i ended up getting there late, because of complications, and we ended up getting wendy's and taking it back to his house. we watched eternal sunshine, and then i stayed till 1. yea (: , i love you. he's amazing,
farria looked cute this morning, i wnated to hug her

mandy and me are getting closer, i think, i want to be like what we used to be though, bestfriends, and didn't let anyone come between us, even if it was our bestfriend. (: I love you

i can't take my eyes off of you

2006-07-18T02:18:05Z

I love my friends (:
I miss alot of them, [RENAE, ASHLEY, FREDDY]

I love my girls&boys that are in my life right now,

Addison&I are amazing, I love him more than anything (: bestfriend,

okay life is amazing, i just need a happy home (: & a built in babysitter to watch jake, so val can go out whenever.

love you bye (:

tonightforyou @ 2006-07-09T20:20:00

2006-07-10T03:21:15Z

Life is amazing, I have the best friends ever, and my grandpa is gone till wednesday, I love it,

Val and Mandy <3 my girls. bestfriends forever, sisters.

Addison, is my bestfriend, my soulmate. I love you for life, baby.

TONY the bird, is starting to like me (: cooll